Uncomfortably Numb

I just want to feel normal, like a regular girl
I want to feel sane, not out of this world.
I want my mind to slow down to a steady gait
I want my heart to not always bite at the bait.
I want to feel loved, like a deserving young lady
I want to feel safe, not abandoned like lately.
I want my body to fit the pretty picture I’ve drawn
I want my soul to have more color than its current fawn.
I know I can get there because I’ve been there before
I know the risk is always worth the end reward.