Salt Air

Innumerable ways I can live my life,
Yet none are easy to choose without you.
All of them involve me living in strife,
With only your opinion to value,
But today your opinion left when the wind blew.

Storm waves rolled in and took me away,
Yet I fought not once against the strong current.
I washed ashore in the safeness of the bay,
With only this new way of seeing my life.
I realized I don’t need to be what you weren’t.

Sun rays beamed and brought me solace,
Yet I never wondered if you would approve.
All of your imperfections were flawless,
With their own opinions of themselves.
But your opinions are stuck in a groove.

The way for me to live my life is mine,
Yet I know you will watch me and smile.
I need to be me and make the most of my time,
With your opinion no longer of importance.
I will write my life with my own style.

Uncomfortably Numb

I just want to feel normal, like a regular girl
I want to feel sane, not out of this world.
I want my mind to slow down to a steady gait
I want my heart to not always bite at the bait.
I want to feel loved, like a deserving young lady
I want to feel safe, not abandoned like lately.
I want my body to fit the pretty picture I’ve drawn
I want my soul to have more color than its current fawn.
I know I can get there because I’ve been there before
I know the risk is always worth the end reward.

Regret

I always knew you would leave,

That was clear right from the start.

You did not teach me how to grieve,

Now you can’t since we’re apart.

I never thought I’d be so young,

With so much of my life ahead.

You did not hear the song unsung,

Now you can’t since you are dead.

I always said it would be later,

That I would end up all alone.

You did not teach me not to hate her,

Now you can’t since you are stone.

I never told you that it’s okay,

With conviction in my voice.

You did not listen to me anyway,

Now you can’t since you killed that choice.

I always think of all our times,

That the future could have held.

You did not teach me how that’s a crime,

Now you can’t since you rebelled.

I never want you to come back,

With those thoughts deep in your head.

You did not learn my plan of attack,

To keep those harsh thoughts dead.